The Gift Of Patience
‘In my view asking for the gift of patience is the most vital step on our healing journey. It is the proof of our willingness to resign ourselves to the guidance of the living God within and to wait patiently until it makes itself known by showing us the difference between those things in our lives that can be changed by us and the ones that are beyond our control. That indeed is a great lesson to learn and I still have a very long way to go. So far, I still feel quite negative and frustrated when things do not go the way I want them to. That is when I remind myself: ‘Patience, my dear soul! Rome wasn’t built in a day!’ Because you mentioned that you also have a strong Saturn influence in your chart, I imagine that you are familiar with this kind of struggle, be it with physical or psychological problems.
‘I am so grateful to you for sharing your insights with me. They really mean a lot to me, and I do hope that they will help many people. They are certainly helping me already and as time goes by, ever more clarity about my condition is coming and my awareness is constantly growing. The past few months have brought me the realisation that although I pray and ask God for help, I have to do the work and I am the only one who can make the decision how I wish to lead my life. It is true that God can only help those who are willing to help themselves and that because we have been given free will, it is up to each one of us whether we wish to continue our suffering or make the changes that are required.
‘A hard and difficult task is facing me, but I know that to the degree I decide to let go of my selfish negative behaviour and thinking patterns, my attachment to food will wane and I shall gradually receive Saturn’s blessings of wisdom and understanding which I will have worked so hard to earn and which will be rightfully mine in all eternity. Now, isn’t that a heart-warming thought for you? ‘I thank you for all your help, and although we have not been in contact that much lately, I always think of you with much love! And I hope that our co-operation may help some ‘out there’ who are also trying to find a better understanding of the purpose and meaning of their suffering. I will keep you posted about the progress I am making. Next month I am going to take a step forward in my life and many things are going to change, as I have made a decision to rebirth myself and become a different person. I am aware that sometimes I shall feel sad and empty, but I will make an effort to remember to surrender to the way my life is in the present moment and not how I want it to be.
Lots of love – Angela’
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The above is a chapter from ‘The Spiritual Perspective Of Eating Disorders’
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